I think the time has come to 'come out' if you will. I know alot of you are probably thinking I dropped off the face of the earth,I kind of have.
My husband and I have been separated for a month now.
I know, I know, I'm still in shock myself. As weird as this next sentence will sound, I believe God orchestrated this whole thing.
Before anyone freaks out, let me explain.
I was just like you. Everytime I heard a woman talk about divorcing her husband being God's will and all, I would roll my eyes internally and think, " I don't know what bible they're reading but mine says God hates divorce.". In fact a week before this all happened, I was having lunch with friends and I literally said that I would just as soon kill my husband than I would divorce him because I now understand what it is to bail out on a situation or stay in order to please God. Someone at the table laughed and remarked how that was more biblical.
No, my husband wasn't with us.
Imagine my shock a week later. Talk about being humbled.
I know that the events that took place couldn't have occurred without Divine intervention. No one has said 'divorce' yet, we just cannot live together right now. In a way I think God HAD to remove each one of us out of each others way.I know he was blocking me , so I have no doubt I must've been blocking his relationship with our Lord.
I am still reeling from the events and am finding myself go through the motions alot physically but not mentally.
I am also beginning to wake up out of my stupor a bit.
I have discovered a wonderful pastor online in the midst of my misery, Francis Chan. I love how he cuts right through all the bull and goes right to the heart of the manner. I have found comfort once again in the one and only Comforter.
I have plans of completely redoing my bedroom soon so that will be great fun to share.
I have also rented wall space at a high traffic antique/craft mall in Jenks, Oklahoma. SoIi have plenty to keep me busy.
Could I come up with 1 more random thought??
I would greatly appreciate your prayers, will keep you in mine.
Blessings!
My husband and I have been separated for a month now.
I know, I know, I'm still in shock myself. As weird as this next sentence will sound, I believe God orchestrated this whole thing.
Before anyone freaks out, let me explain.
I was just like you. Everytime I heard a woman talk about divorcing her husband being God's will and all, I would roll my eyes internally and think, " I don't know what bible they're reading but mine says God hates divorce.". In fact a week before this all happened, I was having lunch with friends and I literally said that I would just as soon kill my husband than I would divorce him because I now understand what it is to bail out on a situation or stay in order to please God. Someone at the table laughed and remarked how that was more biblical.
No, my husband wasn't with us.
Imagine my shock a week later. Talk about being humbled.
I know that the events that took place couldn't have occurred without Divine intervention. No one has said 'divorce' yet, we just cannot live together right now. In a way I think God HAD to remove each one of us out of each others way.I know he was blocking me , so I have no doubt I must've been blocking his relationship with our Lord.
I am still reeling from the events and am finding myself go through the motions alot physically but not mentally.
I am also beginning to wake up out of my stupor a bit.
I have discovered a wonderful pastor online in the midst of my misery, Francis Chan. I love how he cuts right through all the bull and goes right to the heart of the manner. I have found comfort once again in the one and only Comforter.
I have plans of completely redoing my bedroom soon so that will be great fun to share.
I have also rented wall space at a high traffic antique/craft mall in Jenks, Oklahoma. SoIi have plenty to keep me busy.
Could I come up with 1 more random thought??
I would greatly appreciate your prayers, will keep you in mine.
Blessings!
Ana,
ReplyDeleteI just want to let you know that you and your husband are in my prayers for God's will to be done, whether it is a rekindling of your marriage (always better) or the ending of your marriage (which may be better), God definitely knows what the future holds. Having been there myself and struggling with the fact as christians often do when something tragic happens, in my case (short version) God knew it was better that our divorced happend. We were unequally yoked so to speak. A book I will recommend which was my lifesaver, besides my church is When He Leaves, if you are able to purchase it, do so. You will be amazed by the two women who wrote the book and you will feel like you are not alone, for not everyone will understand and people judge. Been there.
Much love and blessings,
Annie :)