Life Is Good

Oh happy day!!

Recovery is not just a nasty painful word, it is so freeing!! That's the best summary I can offer

My husband and I are still split up, but I am feeling so confident and on the path of I can be happy once more. I have been wanting to redo my bedroom for a year now, but I felt so guilty (and fickle) because we've only lived in this house a little over 2 years so I barely broke in the stuff I already have in there. Well, guilty no more, I have started the process !! I splurged the other night and bought a whole new bedding set with matching curtains and valances. I am planning on swapping out my king size bed for a full size so I can make more room for really important things like a chaise lounge ( I have always wanted one since I was a little girl), my sewing machine, my books, my crafts. Pretty much a feminine sanctuary for me.

If you recall from a previous post, this is what my room looks like now.

I am going blue y'all! here's what I bought

and here's what I want to do with my armoire

I am so ding dang excited...I'm beside myself!! I will take lots and lots of pics so I can share this process with the world. A wise young woman once told me it's not about the finished work, it all about the process!!

Aftermass

I think the time has come to 'come out' if you will. I know alot of you are probably thinking I dropped off the face of the earth,I kind of have.

My husband and I have been separated for a month now.

I know, I know, I'm still in shock myself. As weird as this next sentence will sound, I believe God orchestrated this whole thing.
 Before anyone freaks out, let me explain.
I was just like you. Everytime I heard a woman talk about divorcing her husband being God's will and all, I would roll my eyes internally and think, " I don't know what bible they're reading but mine says God hates divorce.". In fact a week before this all happened, I was having lunch with friends and I literally said that I would just as soon kill my husband than I would divorce him because I now understand what it is to bail out on a situation or stay in order to please God. Someone at the table laughed and remarked how that was more biblical.
No, my husband wasn't with us.

Imagine my shock a week later. Talk about being humbled.

I know that the events that took place couldn't have occurred without Divine intervention. No one has said 'divorce' yet, we just cannot live together right now. In a way I think God HAD to remove each one of us out of each others way.I know he was blocking me , so I have no doubt I must've been blocking his relationship with our Lord.

I am still reeling from the events and am finding myself go through the motions alot physically but not mentally.
I am also beginning to wake up out of my stupor a bit.
 I have discovered a wonderful pastor online in the midst of my misery, Francis Chan. I love how he cuts right through all the bull and goes right to the heart of the manner. I have found comfort once again in the one and only Comforter.

I have plans of completely redoing my bedroom soon so that will be great fun to share.

I have also rented wall space at a high traffic antique/craft mall in Jenks, Oklahoma. SoIi have plenty to keep me busy.

Could I come up with 1 more random thought??
I would greatly appreciate your prayers, will keep you in mine.

Blessings!